Memories1204

It all started out..
I wore the red pants from yesterday under some black pants and when to school.
In front of dandelions locker at, i was talking to this girl Tima, shes amazing and wonderful
(she told me to put that up)
and her friend and her friend Acceber.
And then, ______ says something.
Ugh, what random timing. What i hate most is how ______ is all cold to me when i talk to her but when she talks to me i still treat her like a friend, or at least try my best.
Maybe i should bring everything up to speed.
Who is this person anyways?
Well, that isn't important.
All you need to know is that she had been someone very important to my life. Too bad shes gone now.
She's been gone for about 2 and a half months.
How did this happen? Why did it happen?
I don't even know myself.

REEWIND

SpringBreak08:
I had been talking to ______ quite a lot recently. Plus, she had also just given me her phone number. After this really neat assembly with a barber shop quartet, i continued to talk to her more, she said she liked my hat so without a thought, gave it to her. My favorite hat.. Wait a minute, there's a lot missing. Let's take it back further.

REEWIND

Somewhere around January 28 and February:
I had been going to school, just like usual, except, this time, something felt wierd. I felt like something huge was missing. I just shrugged it off and continued.
Two weeks later, i found out that this girl that i always said hi to when i said hi to Geekum in the mornings had been gone! Now i knew what had been missing.
But how did i feel it and why? Shrugged that off too.
Apparently, she had been sick with a really bad fever and as she came out of it, she had a headache that didn't go away, it was also her birthday.
For some strange reason, i felt like i had a huge obligation to get her something.
In rush, i found 10 dollars in my pocket (all i had at the time) and gave it to her. She said it was too much and couldn't take it from me, so i said fine, i'll get change later.
I never did.
I wanted her to have it and even more.
I wanted to get her more than a measly 10 dollars.
But i didn't know why.
I never knew how much of an impact this day would have for the rest of my life.

FASTFORWARD

Back to SpringBreak08:
After giving ______ my favorite hat, we parted and left to our buses.
Spring Break was here.
It was going to be a long week..

March 16, 2008:
Ever since i got home from school, i had been talking to ______ a lot on myspace.
I noticed that she was the only person i really ever talked to this much on myspace.
I would even wait at my keyboard constantly waiting for replies. I'd even fall asleep.
I started thinking..
I noticed a lot of strange things in my past behavior:
1. I went out of my way to cross paths with her at school.
2. I'd get every chance i could to talk to her.
3. I was shy around her.
4. I gave her things without thinking about it.
5. I felt she meant something to me more than anyone at school and i didn't know why.
6. I would call for the most random things.
7. I thought she was goddamn cute.
8. Most of all, i couldn't stop thinking about her.
My conclusion was:
What the hell am i thinking?
What if she likes this friend of mine?
They were always talking about her.
What if it's true?
What am i going to do about this?!
I really thought hard about this that i'd fall asleep doing so.
After talking for a bit more that Sunday, i asked her:
"Do you like anyone?"
And i brought it up quite casually too to make sure i wouldn't raise suspicion.
She said:

"**
uh.. i i icant say..
um..gotta go eat dinner so yeah ill be right back..."

Those exact words.
Next, i said that if she didn't tell me, i;d call her and make her tell me.
So, i called, and finally confessed. I told her that i liked her.
Turns out, she liked me too, since February. (Probably around the time i gave her a measley 10 dollars for her birthday)
And,
i
felt
fucking
happy.

So, for the next few days of Spring Break, we were dieing..
We wanted to see eachother so bad. We had been talking more than ever.
We even started calling eachother every night. This had been our routine. Talk on myspace untill she has to go. Then call and talk on the phone for hours..

FASTFORWARD

We got back to school and up until May, had a great time.
But, May 19th, the day of Grad Night at Six Flags was going to make everything even better..

But that story is for another time..
This is a memory i cherish. It's burned into the back of my head and it keeps replaying.
The best day (none other can compare) in my life.
I think, for every memory, there's a song to match it.
This is the song for this memory: